Where I begin

For the best part of the last 10 years, my efforts in seeking a female partner and actually converting this into a date, and further into a relationship have turned out fairly dismally. This by no means is a reflection on lack of trying, there have been things I have tried but all of them for the most part were far from successful and all left me with none of the power in the situation.

A key point in this issue for me is that while I have tried multiple different ways to seek out a relationship, none of the ways that I have tried are all that different, or anything much more then a passive interest. You may understand a little better when I let you in on the ways I have failed.

• There was going out and sitting in night clubs hoping that something might happen, guess what nothing did, but then again would I have really wanted what may have come from meeting a girl in a night club. This was something that should it have been successful would have actually required a little effort on my part, which was for the most part lacking.
• Then there was shopping with a female friend, well, this leads most people to one assumption, that we are not friends but, in a relationship. This made things to a degree even worse for me, because that is what it felt like even though i knew with certainty that we were not. This is where it becomes easier to pretend then to actually see reality
• Talking with girls at the checkout or such when buying things also was a failing point. It would seem that I have never really been that good at talking in a social manner, something that I really do need to work on, so how am I going to manage this short flirty conversation any better then a longer conversation.
• Finally there was the attempt at multiple different Internet Dating websites. No matter what the name or the type of site the result for the most part was always the same. Send a message, get a reply, send a message and then nothing. Although this was even a rarity in a reply, for the most part it was send a message and nothing, occasionally there was a little more then this, however it all comes down to a big old numbers game.

So as you can see fairly dismal attempt if that is what I can call it at seeking out a potential relationship. In retrospect internet dating has actually probably been the most successful out of all the options I have tried, however as I said it is one bit numbers game, at some point you have to get a positive response from someone. However what has come in this area is something for another post, don't want to give all the good stuff away all at once. 

As you can see where I am at is not the most interesting place in terms of a successful or a fulfilling relationship. Considering that I am still single and have been for the very large part of the last 10 years, I would not hesitate to say that none of this has really been that successful in anyway at all. However this is where I am at, I know there is something that needs to change in the process to change the outcome, and that is just what I am going to explore through this blog, the path that I take to change the outcome.